Getting a colonoscopy is not for the weak. This single experience just added a whole new level of intricacy to this world. How is it that Western medicine makes you feel torture and pain to figure out what is wrong with you. It is cold, it is impersonal, it is fear inducing. Yet, there are some people that clearly thrives and genuinely care. It just all feels so paradoxal. You know… to be put under sedation (being legally drugged) so that a doctor that spent 8+ years of school can shove a camera up my colon. I can’t imagine how we got to this point. This experience has awaken a belief I had for a long time but never was able to put my finger on.
From a young age, I have had my fair share of hospital visits. Vivid memories of a certain cherry flavored sedative gas. Having suffered from recuring ear infections, I got familiar with the waiting rooms. They always felt so cold. One day, my mom decided that I should try acupuncture. Acupuncture? I knew practically nothing of Eastern Medecine at that point in my life. I remember scaring myself further into going in there by using a good old google search. To get poked by needles in different areas felt extremely odd for me. I always felt so terribly cold there as well. Physically. Not mentally. I think that is the most revealing attribute that allowed me to differentiate the two medecines. It is the environment that matters. One which whom interpersonal skills are require but aren’t felt and one which communication takes other forms. I grew to enjoy acupuncture and although I had the shivers laying down on this table with needle between my brows, I couldn’t stop moving my thumbs up and down, and left to right in order to feel the stinging of the single needle right in the meaty flesh of the hand between the index and the thumb. There was a fascinating pain going on and I couldn’t stop myself from moving it in addition to the additional brow scrunch because it felt kind of painfully good. I don’t know if that was part of it all, but I somehow think that allowing myself to feel those sensations on my body helped revealed that the body speaks to you in ways that you didn’t even know were possible. After all, there is a lot of people at work inside that machine of yours. You would think that Western medicine would understand that rather than forcibly flushing down a pipe system and shoving metal robots into my backdoor. My beef with Western Medecine is that it is somewhat too intricately focused on a single thing rather than the whole. There are so many specializations, and so many brains at work, but they all seem to lose perspective of the very thing they are researching. I think science can be incredible, but I think that in practice, we reveal our flawed thinking of the being. I feel harvested of energy whenever I leave an hospital. When I leave an acupuncture’s practice, I feel rejuvenated. The way you leave a place tells a lot about the institution that controls it. Although we are so incredible advanced, we lack in that department as well. We think that our choices don’t matter, but they do. The collective’s choices will influence the timeline. You will never see the world change due to a single event. It’s through our individual choices that we reveal ourselves to the world. And to the world, it reflects it right back. Let the world reveal itself to you rather than looking for it.
Having this colonoscopy truly showed me the difference between the medecines. It was a lovely reminder of why I need to listen to my body. Treat it with respect and treat it like an engine in needs of things. The body requires things for it to work. We’re the energy consumer to make it work. We are a nervous system at the reigns of a meat suit. That would be quite the drawing wouldn’t it..
ps; thinking i like writing… seeing a future
All Too Human 